LadyLewind

You're like a puzzle Broken into a million pieces No one is there to put you back together You pine You whine You write love songs Love poems But they are echoing Crying out into a cave No one but you hears You try and try You push and push You crack and crack Emotion builds in you like bubbles Bubbles without enough room Bursting to get out One day that lid will crack Everything will tumble out Wine from an uncorked bottle And then it will build again

You meet someone You fall in love You marry, have children You love and you love And you love The love between you grows More every day as you age As you age together Inseparable One Then they are gone There is no warning None that is enough Your other half is gone They have vanished They won't come back There is no rhyme There is no reason You grow empty You feel the loss Every day Every hour Every minute Every second It doesn't leave you There is a hole in you A hole in your heart You cannot fill it Until you join them Finding them once again Immortal in death

I am not alone. I am not alone. I am not alone. I am not alone. I am not alone.

Love is a very dangerous word It's a word that might slip out It beats at the back of your teeth It tugs at your tongue It screams at you to be said But should it be said? It is difficult to tell when When is the right time? When should you say you love? What should happen if it's wrong? What if it is the wrong time? Too many questions The questions batter your mind They drown the word in your mouth What if you're wrong? The word doesn't go away It retreats, crushed Forced into submission Subservient to fear

It's very hard to fix something When it believes itself broken When it believes itself worthless When it can't believe anything Thoughts scratch and gnaw at my mind They rip at me, at every fiber They tear and torture and harm What if it was my fault? What if it will be my fault? What if it's me? Worry has become second nature I fear I may lose people I've lost in the past and will again I am sure that I will lose again There is this certainty that any fault Will drive a person from me I cannot move forward, cannot push I cannot risk no matter how much I want If I love, there is this fear there I wish to show affection, to say something My

Regression to the mean A cause for a phrase all know "If it can go wrong, it will" And it will, always will There is only so long one can be happy There is only so long until it all comes down It crashes, falls, breaks, cracks It dies, we die The happiness passes, replaced But this is not the end This is merely a dip A regression The happiness dropping Before plateauing to a norm Leveling, stilling, neither good nor bad Eventually, it will rise again Eventually, it will fall again It will regress to the mean

Limbo, the simply complicated state of not being anywhere Too far ahead to go back, too far behind to go forward Life, death, love, hate, friendship All things, limbo They grey area that creates one's life, slow and muddy The act of waiting for something and yet not knowing There is no true grasp of what that something is Some form of outcome that may or may not be reached Lost, found, flailing, still, everything and nothing Secure and insecure In limbo